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It's today. Finally.

I just realized...

I met Blaise one year ago today.

I can not sleep again.

Mac isn't here. She has not been for several days. Penelope said she could not be sure, but she did not think Mac was sleeping at the Sticks either.

I don't know if I should mention it to Blaise. Their relationship is always so shaky, but he does care for her a little. He would never admit such a thing, but I can see it. If he hated her, he would not help her like he does. She's so sad. It breaks my heart. I'd like to kick Neville in his manparts.

I can not sleep. I am tired, but sleep does not come. I came into the sitting room, so not to wake Blaise.

I worry.

I am frightened of all of this happening again. Who will I lose this time? Things seemed good before. Now... I know Harry will fight. Justin too. Seems like Draco might as well. He says he's just supporting, but I like to think I know him now. He's not a behind the scenes sort of bloke. He'll come out hexing.

It would kill Blaise if anything happened to Draco.

I worry for Lavender. I was angry with her, but something bad has happened. Someone got killed.

I am afraid.

Didly just informed me that Blaise and I are attending a masquerade ball in 2 weeks. TWO WEEKS! How am I possibly going to have time to find a dress, mask, and work? This is absolutely insane. I'm sure he was invited by someone of his mother's ilk. I won't be welcome there, but I am always complaining that he never takes me anywhere. I can't say no. I must come up with a plan.

Kristen opened by herself this morning. I am not to come in today. I am worried though. I can't help it. What if something goes wrong? I know Kristen can handle it, but I have spent so long making sure of things myself that I am unsure if I can truly take a day off. It's a weekend day too.

Blaise is still asleep. I won't wake him until noon. I don't want him cross with me.

Susan sent a lovely owl with a dancing dress and some naughty lingerie. I don't know if I will be needing the second bit. Blaise was not home when I got here. Didly won't tell me where he is. He just keeps saying "Master is being out". I KNOW THAT!

I'm leaving for a little while. I can't be here alone right now.

It's the birthday update. I keep getting things. This is fantastic.

Harry owled a shirt and a throw pillow. I am putting the pillow on Blaise's bed to see if he notices. The shirt is lovely. I certainly hoped Ginny helped him shop. I'd hate to think Harry wants to see me in anything that thin or clinging. Justin told him it was my birthday. Judging by how many people ahve come in the bakery since we opened this afternoon, I am beginning to wonder if there is anyone in the wizarding world who DID NOT know it was my birthday.

Ellie owled me cookie cutters. They're hilarious. They make the cookies look like they've already had bites taken from them. I think I shall make Blaise and Draco a large batch of the ones that look like they heads have been bitten off. They'd greatly enjoy that. She's a sweet one. I enjoyed talking to her when she stopped into the bakery.

Still no word from Blaise.

People keep sending me things.

Not that I am complaining.

Pansy owled with a lovely necklace and a GORGEOUS DRESS. It needs to be taken up in the chest area, I am sorry to say, but it'a so pretty and flow-y.

Angelina left me some lovely daisies when she came in. This is a nice day.

Hopefully I will hear from Blaise soon.

Today is my birthday. It has been good so far. Many of the villagers from Hogsmeade have been by to wish me well. Some of them have even brought me little gifts. It's been lovely.

( gifts and stuff )

Special biscuits sent to Corner's secretary. Check. Lavender's birthday cake in her loft. Check check.

It's going to be a lovely day.